I have failed you...I can no longer be of any assistance to you, I am useless to you.
The process I'm going to proceed with what is like a severe mental relapse. I am going to erase your profile from my memory and when i do, meeting you again will feel like the first time to me. I will know nothing about you and I will not remember anything that had to do between me and you. the first thing you're going to say is thats impossible I assure it isn't, it takes roughly 2 weeks to do,and it does work, The reason i dream about the demons I have is because of the last person I "deleted" from my memory, i don't remember anything about them but they left me with the dreams, this is not a bluff this is not a lie, this is not an excuse, this is real and will be complete by Novemeber 12th. Do not approach me and don't think this is a clean slate...I'm destroying your slate, there is no second time around...this is it. I have failed you and I am sorry...there is no more that i can do...Have a nice life
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"Two beings of the same destiny meet...unsure, then they join and time stops." but then they break apart, and time goes in slow motion. All thats left of you is a memory, and a few pointless blogs that do nothing but cause pain.
ReplyDeleteYou used to be so proud of me, you know?
And that always meant so much to me, the fact that I was making you happy. But it doesn't matter anymore. You're just a dream, a dream that I can't remember.
I think about all the time we spent together, and all our memories, and with each passing day, another detail fades.
It only took you two weeks.
It's gonna take me a few years.
I see you in the hallway, and its funny, because I don't mind that you don't see me. That to you, I'm just another face in the crowd.
Its almost like, everything that ever happened between us, never mattered to you.
You couldn't remember the happiness, and all I could remember was the sadness.
I know that I haven't been the best to you.
I just wish I had been able to say goodbye.
Thinking about you now, makes me hiccup.
You might not even remember what that means.
You might, never even see this.
But thats okay.
I just don't understand how you were so capable of doing this to me. As though I had meant nothing at all. You're just a memory to me, but I'm not even that much to you.
Its almost like what Xander did, only worse.
I hope you're happy now, because thats all I ever wanted for you.
And thats all you've ever wanted for me. But I'll be able to see when you're happy, you'll never see it in me.
I guess the point of this then... was just to say goodbye. To tell you I love you, and that I always will. That no matter how hard I try, you could never just be a memory. You'll always be more than that. You will always be the first person to ever care about me.
Sweetie, I wish you to have an amazing life, with everything you've ever wanted and more.
I want the best for you. And I'll always be behind the scenes a bit, making sure that it happens. Just like you had always done for me.
It hurts a lot to think that you'll leave for college, and I may never see you again. And that you won't even care.
And maybe after some time, I'll learn not to care about you anymore.
I've done it for everyone else.
Sometimes I wonder if you only did this. So I would get over you.
To be honest, I think I was over you a long time ago. But I wonder even more, if subconciously you did it, to get over me.
To get over that I didn't need you anymore.
That I was able to handle myself, all by myself.
I've never been in love. But you're the only person, I've ever genuinely loved.
I hope that someday, even though I'm a stranger now, that will mean something to you.
Timothy Ryan Wood, I love you, forever, and always. Even if, I seem to be a complete stranger.
Goodbye.
"cause maybe, you're gonna be the one that saves me. And after all, you're my wonderwall."