I'm going now.....

Everything has ended the way I expected it to.....

I'm glad it did but at the same time...I'm sad......

It's funny, I knew it was all gonna turn out this, it always does.

I'm lost now and I don't know where to go.....

I've gone from trying to help people find themselves to this...

lost,empty,and no more ambition to do this anymore.......

how the tables have turned on me.....

I found you...

Its funny how things work out sometimes...
Life, I mean. It never seems to go according to plan.
i'm getting sicker...I think i know why, but i don't want it to be that reason.
That would not be good...
All kinds of things are happening...
I haven't had a dream in two months...I haven't dreamt of anything.
its just blackness...
I have finally met my match...I knew immediately, you matched the person from the dream
same description as them...You have that aura around you...I'm so glad you have finally shown yourself...

I wish....

There are many things in this world I wish would happen....

I wish I could go back in time and change things so that could come out the best they could....

I wish I could have helped more....

I wish for your Happiness....

I hope that things go the way I hope they do....

I wish that I could be there, but my time has come and gone....

your heart is strong, it is pure, it will be a light for many people for many years....

I wish I could see you become the person I know you'll become, but you're on your own now...

I am so proud of you, you need to know this...

I wish for you to stay strong, I wish you to be passionate, and above all....

I want you to be...yourself

Be the light I know you can, because the world could use a bit more of that...

Good luck my dear...change the world....

In order to save myself I'm erasing you

I have failed you...I can no longer be of any assistance to you, I am useless to you.

The process I'm going to proceed with what is like a severe mental relapse. I am going to erase your profile from my memory and when i do, meeting you again will feel like the first time to me. I will know nothing about you and I will not remember anything that had to do between me and you. the first thing you're going to say is thats impossible I assure it isn't, it takes roughly 2 weeks to do,and it does work, The reason i dream about the demons I have is because of the last person I "deleted" from my memory, i don't remember anything about them but they left me with the dreams, this is not a bluff this is not a lie, this is not an excuse, this is real and will be complete by Novemeber 12th. Do not approach me and don't think this is a clean slate...I'm destroying your slate, there is no second time around...this is it. I have failed you and I am sorry...there is no more that i can do...Have a nice life

Dissappointment

I am dissapointed in you...If you are going to be like this then I do not wish to talk to you

I will not tolerate you talking down to me, I'm not dealing with it. I am not going to call you until

you get off your high horse, come back down to earth and start talking to me like you used

to...and even then I will not call you, I can no longer help you unless you ask, and if you don't

think you need me anymore then I will leave you alone...just like you seem to wanna be at this

point...my phone will always be on and I will always be here to talk but I WILL NOT tolerate

being talked to like I have no idea what I'm talking about, because wether you like it or not you

have a substantial amount to learn...you can deny it all you want but I know you know it's true.

I'm sorry if this stings,but I can longer care at this point anymore.

"There is always somthing to learn."

Fire and Ice

Total opposites off the natural spectrum, and two of the most dangerous...


this month of thinking has really been somthing, I find clues in everything I see now...I could be going insane, but if I'm right I could find an entirely new way of thinking...or a one way ticket to the insane asylum...


"Total opposites yet absolutley connected."

"This is insane it can't be real."

"It has to be real...I can't think of any other way around it..."

"If only Icould see the future..."

"Blank white spaces, days of silence."

"Eyes of Fire and eyes of Ice."

"F I."

Some things I have thought about, just made things worse, other things made things clearer, but nothing made anything better.

"Two beings of the same destiny meet...unsure, then they join and time stops."

"Is it insane to think that I can affect this outcome or will it happen naturally?"

"I pray for people like you."

"why?"

"Because you won't accept him into your heart."

I know you don't like to hear this but quit telling me I'm wrong and question yourself as to wether you are wrong or not and leave my beliefs in peace.


"Honor thy Beliefs, follow thy heart and become the castle of thy loved ones."-The wolves

secret messages

"I'm disappointed in myself...I'm zooming around too much in my own head...thoughts are brewing that shouldn't be there..."

"It's a dangerous thing...to get lost in one's thoughts..."

So,I am gald to see much progress from you. You really have turned yourself around, wether it was from my help or not, it doesn't matter, the point is that you are freeing yourself. So my dad blew up on me about...dress pants...amazing I know, but thats how my family works, apparently...I missed you very much while I was gone, trust me, it got really annoying after the first like 10 hours.

"This always happens everytime, but I cant stop it and I feel horrible about it..."

"Keep you mind open and your tongue silent."

My "dreams" have been steadily increasing in thier "intensity" over the past few weeks...it could be nothing, or I need to get out...

"Things happen so fast i don't think I can do this."

"Should I be worried or should I ignore?"

"I think there may be an unbalance."

"there are signs of it everyday."

Every Phrase is a secret message...

Every message is piece...

when you have all the pieces, you control that person...

And then you are no better than a common thief...

"Listen and understand and the world becomes clearer..."-The wolves

The ducks flies south...

one of my Dad's favorite phrases, and a true fact apparently! so anyway today was very different from any other day. I went to school, lisened to Andy bitch about whatever he was bitching about. I swear he needs to go do somthing else for once in his life besides following me.

but anyway I had a "mental rehab" today for a little bit. It was nice to get away from my thoughts for a little bit. It's been troubling latley but I need to stay what I am so they will remain unimportant to me. My mom has been bitching latley "you ungrateful prick you don't even know what you did!" ya mom I don't know so why don't you quit bitchin and tell me what i've done?
whatever it isn't important, cu your halfway to hammered and there isn't any stopping you. I know you think it's cool to be a punkass tough guy but trust me...I have no patience for that so if you keep acting like this I'm gonna break your fucking face...I've been thinking about whether what I'm doing is ethical or not anymore...I'm leaning towards no...

Thanks for the car today babe, It made my day. You have come so far form when I met you and i am ooo sooo proud of you you'll never know. I know it's difficult going through all this crap on a regular basis, but you're strong I know it, so just hang in there and everything will be fine.

And always remember "Life is what you make it."

well here I am

i was asked not soo politley to create this...so look for somTHING soon i suppose..