secret messages

"I'm disappointed in myself...I'm zooming around too much in my own head...thoughts are brewing that shouldn't be there..."

"It's a dangerous thing...to get lost in one's thoughts..."

So,I am gald to see much progress from you. You really have turned yourself around, wether it was from my help or not, it doesn't matter, the point is that you are freeing yourself. So my dad blew up on me about...dress pants...amazing I know, but thats how my family works, apparently...I missed you very much while I was gone, trust me, it got really annoying after the first like 10 hours.

"This always happens everytime, but I cant stop it and I feel horrible about it..."

"Keep you mind open and your tongue silent."

My "dreams" have been steadily increasing in thier "intensity" over the past few weeks...it could be nothing, or I need to get out...

"Things happen so fast i don't think I can do this."

"Should I be worried or should I ignore?"

"I think there may be an unbalance."

"there are signs of it everyday."

Every Phrase is a secret message...

Every message is piece...

when you have all the pieces, you control that person...

And then you are no better than a common thief...

"Listen and understand and the world becomes clearer..."-The wolves

The ducks flies south...

one of my Dad's favorite phrases, and a true fact apparently! so anyway today was very different from any other day. I went to school, lisened to Andy bitch about whatever he was bitching about. I swear he needs to go do somthing else for once in his life besides following me.

but anyway I had a "mental rehab" today for a little bit. It was nice to get away from my thoughts for a little bit. It's been troubling latley but I need to stay what I am so they will remain unimportant to me. My mom has been bitching latley "you ungrateful prick you don't even know what you did!" ya mom I don't know so why don't you quit bitchin and tell me what i've done?
whatever it isn't important, cu your halfway to hammered and there isn't any stopping you. I know you think it's cool to be a punkass tough guy but trust me...I have no patience for that so if you keep acting like this I'm gonna break your fucking face...I've been thinking about whether what I'm doing is ethical or not anymore...I'm leaning towards no...

Thanks for the car today babe, It made my day. You have come so far form when I met you and i am ooo sooo proud of you you'll never know. I know it's difficult going through all this crap on a regular basis, but you're strong I know it, so just hang in there and everything will be fine.

And always remember "Life is what you make it."

well here I am

i was asked not soo politley to create this...so look for somTHING soon i suppose..